Several years ago I was in the same position as Demigawd, feeling alone and unattractive. A friend gave me a phone number one day, saying simply that I deserved to feel great for an hour. It was the old Bel Aire outcall agency. After three months I did call and asked the wonderful phone lady to send over the nicest woman available, and she did. Celeste was her name. She was extremely kind and generous ( the "hour" lasted from 8:30 to 10:15), and somehow I didn't think I was that bad looking anymore. She really helped me. Find a great provider or a great house, and Demigawd you've found one in Julie's.